Thursday, July 20, 2017

What I Used To Be: A Neurotic Bitch

These past days, I've been recollecting memories from these past years. I read my old blogposts, from the very first blogpost ever until the latest one. I even went to my other blogs to read what I'd written about my life so far. And I somehow related each writings with the situation I was in.

From it, I conclude: I was a Neurotic Bitch.

I  used to overthink.

I won't deny that I'm still struggling with overthinking issue, but looking back at my past writings makes me want to apologize to myself. I might have 100 problems, but 99 of them were probably made up by me. I was super anxious, like I spent 99.99 % of my time thinking of an action and only 0.01 % was the action itself. I used too much energy on 'what if?', then I was overwhelmed by my imaginary hurdles, and lost my ability to analyze the situation. It made my head feels like it's gonna boom in seconds. I was hopeless. Even though the problem was quite easy to be overcome. 

And now I think what I did is funny. It is really funny.

Moreover, I was super anxious.

Because I thought too much, I never reached perfection. It made me feel wrong all the time and be like...

I think I should've just adopted Nike slogan, 'Just Do It'. Simple.

Be happy, everyone! Don't overthink. Just face it. If you're overwhelmed by emotions just feel it and share it with friends, make them feeling emotional too. Hahahaha. And if you make mistake and realize it, just laugh at it, because I do love laughing at myself. We never do it right, anyway.

Oh well..., I think I've found my new favorite word. It's 'just'.


Friday, July 7, 2017

From A Year Ago

This post has been in my draft since 6 months ago. The pictures have been in my drive since a year ago. So let me post this one here on my blog. I really like all pictures. Taken when I was caught by Pokemon GO fever. At that time, Ciwalk felt like my second home, LOL!


Sunday, February 5, 2017

Fire Rooster

It's been a week after the CNY, but I still can say 'Happy New Year', right?! Okay, so happy New Year. Have a prosperous year of fire rooster.

I managed to take a day off on January 27 and went back to Jakarta early in the morning to catch up the praying time. My grandma always does the same routines every year, arranging dishes, tea, bowls, candles, and hio on the table. Burning joss paper is followed afterwards as an offering to the deceased. As I've got informed, this tradition is almost gone in this country. It surprised me because I used to see my family do that often on every Chinese celebration day. I just thought every Chinese family does that also. But nope. Only a few of them.

In the evening, my family gathered to have a big CNY feast. The next day in the morning is an angpao hunting day. Well, actually I somehow felt uneasy receiving the angpao. It was certainly fine if I got the angpao from my close relatives whom I met often. I was really happy, I got bundle of cash. But it turned awkward when I still get angpao from distant relatives who I only see once a year. I got the feeling that they contemplated the night before whether to give me or not: 'But, Anggie is a grown-up'.

My outfit of the day is red shirt paired with loose jeans. Red is an obligation on Chinese New Year. To look hipster :D, I bought vintage glasses and I enjoyed wearing it. Looks cool.

Chinese New Year means angpao and angpao means money. Related to money, the prediction said that Horses will be quite lucky in finance this year. My Chinese Zodiac is Horse. Good news! I'm always expecting prosperity every year. Glad that someone said I could have financial luck this year. Must have believe it.

Speaking of finance, few days ago someone shared an article saying that Millennials tend to spend more on travelling than an investment. The result is they get broke, have no money left for 'the future'. At first I was against that idea. These days, people realize that experience worth more than materials, so spending money on travelling is something that should be everyone's goal instead of buying thing, like cars that make global warming even worse.

However, I started thinking it might be true because the internet now brings people to glorify travelling. The sad truth is not everyone can afford travelling, well, including me. All these 'take me to...' or 'follow me to...' hypes are like two-sided-coin. Travelling brings happiness indeed. But it's kind of the new form of consumerism. People make themselves travel for the sake of experience or collecting nice pictures for their Instagram. I think it's not worth at all to be broke or worse, to be trapped in debt, after the trip to Maldives that actually we could not afford. 

I'm being me. I'm going to take it easy. I'm still thinking to go to Japan first rather than buying car or house though. And, since I'll be lucky this year in finance, let me still expect my first out of country trip in 2017 *finger crossed.

Next story, coming soon